So I acknowledge that I’ve been unnecessarily down and mopey the last couple of days, and truly, how could I complain?
I’d accomplished one life goal and gotten a book published, a feat not many people actually commit to completing. I’ve had tons of support from friends and family along the way. Reaching out to update people has been great as a lot of them, I hadn’t talked to in ages and ages, so connecting was awesome.
So what if, while on the free list, it only reached a high of #22 in its category? That actually still says a lot considering it was a newcomer and from a first time author.
I let myself be consumed with fear over a lot of things, mainly the financial situation I’m in. I know this isn’t the first (and unlikely to be the last) time I bring this up, but in finally coming to grips with the amount of debt I have from student loans, I’ve re-affirmed that this is a situation I want to grow from, as quickly as possible. It’s not fair to the people I’ve borrowed from to help me stay afloat. I know the turnaround is coming and I’m going to be taking some action steps next week to ensure I can finally start working soon enough.
But really, today’s posting is about perspective. In the middle of my head crisis, I was spending time with my cat, Vivo, pictured above. Normally, when I say hi to him, we spend a few moments of me scratching his head before he shifts and moves on. Well today, we spent a good 10-15 minutes of good head scratching. Sure, he’d shift, but he always maintained contact. In one of those moments, I realized that even the little act of petting him was giving him loads and loads of contentment and happiness that toys (usually) can’t supply him.
Then I opened the window to the den, where he stays. He didn’t notice it at first, but once he did, he’s taken up his perch and now enjoys the fresh air he’s getting as he looks outside and hears the birdsong and lawn mowing and other sounds going on outside.
Yes, I was hoping to make more of an impact on others’ lives with my book, but I understand that it will happen in time. For now, all that matters is that I helped make one other person’s… or at least cat’s day a bit happier because I was here to keep him company for a period of time and open a window.
Sometimes, you just have to do the simple things.
Now, to get started writing book number 2…