So a few of my friends have been working on various gratitude journeys this month and, while I may be starting a bit late halfway through the month, I figured it’s time to pick up on this daily meditation again. I have let a lot lapse the last few months as I shifted my focus temporarily towards stabilizing my financial situation. It’s nowhere near perfect and has definitely not even have improved (if I just look at numbers) from this spring, but things have certainly shifted – for one, I am finding it easier to breathe and let get of the overwhelm and the fear and the crushing weight of my debt. I have accepted that this is here to stay for a bit longer yet and, even though it’s not pleasant, it is not the end of the world. So rather than focus on the negative numbers, I choose to shift my focus towards what I am grateful for.
This morning, I awoke when it was still dark and was greeted with the soft, gentle sound of rainfall. Living in this drought-stricken area of California, it is a much needed gift (and I am hoping this rain will help revive my lavender plant, which I brought with me from my last home). And as I was driving to church this morning, I found myself pondering – even as we humans try to control every part of our every day being, we still have to bend and adapt to external forces and influences, be they family, or friends, or colleagues, or strangers… Be they technology challenges and snafus, or traffic delays, or missing luggage… Be they international dilemmas or local… We are a resilient species. We will change, adapt, shift our way to make the best out of a situation in the end. I mean after all, is it really too hard to take an umbrella out or wear a rain jacket and boots out in the rain? If the desire is to go out, then you will do so. If the desire is to stay in and enjoy a peaceful morning inside, then you will do that instead. The rain and all the weather changes that can take place can influence what we do, but it doesn’t change the fact that in the end, we will do what we need to do in this moment today, tomorrow, and for however many days we have left ahead of us.
But in the meantime, today, I am grateful for the rain and for its gift to our earth. I am grateful for living in a house that shelters me from the brunt of the rain, for a car that allows me to travel with ease and warmth and dryness during the worst of the storm, and for the choice to walk or dance in the rain if I see fit. With my face upturned to the sky, I imagine that rain washing away all the dirt and debris and waste from myself – mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. And so it is.